I woke up with a sleepy head did the same routine grabbed the pan cooked some eggs and breakfast is ready. I kissed my love sweet good bye watched him go from afar. I was left all by myself into the bed I went grabbed my phone typed some words random as it goes. I feel dizzy and so tired here I go again thinking of thoughts ahead of time wander as I wonders. Later tonight I have to work caregive at my best but sometimes I feel so weak I wish I can just rest. My facebook account is outdated would be nice the other way around couldn't even make a selfie since when did I grow old. Since when did I felt this way it was a decade ago I am so tired and weary I want a different place to go. A place where I could find myself and answer all my questions a place where I am free where I can just be me. There are people around yet the feeling is real as if I'm all alone it's worse than just a feeling I wish I can let go. If I could only have a choice I would chose not to feel be numb as if nothing happened forget about everything. I often wonder what is wrong but I couldn't figure it out I guess I never will bother I shouldn't have. I'm just a silly sausage wanting to escape this perfect melancholic feeling is there's no point in trying. How would I end this kind of feeling The answer's nowhere to be found How would I stop my thoughts from coming I guess I'd never know. I want to end this writing perhaps this is it for now though I know this feeling would stay like a thorn in my throat.